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Commitment-Phobe: I lead my first service

Commitment-Phobe: I lead my first service

Moving on from atheism, Commitment-Phobe toured churches and tried God, chronicling her progress for Reform. Now, as a new Christian, the journey continues

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Strange things happen when your church is between ministers and people go on summer holiday. One of those strange things is me being asked to lead the Sunday service.

I received an email one Friday afternoon from our worship leader. Assuming I was being asked to sing, I had to read the email a few times before I understood that, no, I was not being asked to lead sung worship. I was being asked to lead the entire service! Gulp! I thought: If I just ignore the email, someone else will offer to do it. But by Friday evening, I had heard nothing more and felt torn – between fear of doing it and fear of regretting not doing it. So, as I tend to do when I’m faced with something scary (but not life threatening) I thought I’d give it a go. And that is how I ended up leading the service on Sunday.

The service format had been created by the combined efforts of the worship leader and the children and youth leader, so I was essentially following a script. My job was to welcome, lead an opening prayer, then the confession, the absolution and the peace and then, at the end, perform the blessing and dismissal. Or, as I described them to a friend on the day, ‘the in-between bits’. The only improvised part was the opening prayer and any further prayer or praise I felt inclined to speak in response to the service.

The day before, I realised I had never led a prayer in front of my church. In fact, I wasn’t sure what
made a good prayer. I knew there are prayers that make you want to say: ‘Amen’, and others where
your mind wanders off and you have to keep dragging yourself back to listen.
I looked up opening prayers on the internet …

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This is an extract from the October 2016 edition of Reform.

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